Every now and then I battle with negative thoughts which at a time of my life was so dangerous that it led me to extreme sadness, even to border depression and suicidal thoughts. In those moments, I was so self-centered and only focused on MYSELF and how I felt (victim mentality), dwelling in MY pain and MY sorrow and MY problems,allowing it to overtake me in a way that was extremely unhealthy. I thank God for those low moments because It led me to realize that it was not normal as a child of God to come to a point of having suicidal thoughts!! This is not of God! I found out through prayer, fasting, and reading the word that the most powerful way the devil controls people is through their emotions. If the devil can overtake you with a negative emotion, then he can get you to do anything. Think about it, how does someone commit murder? It starts with a thought…which produces a feeling…which results to the act of murder. In my decision to take control of my thought process, I came across several books which I will list below and recommend for a more in-depth understanding.In the book How God changes your brain, the author states “The way we think and feel over time affects our brain’s chemistry. Predominantly negative thinking actually changes the brain, making it susceptible to mental illness. If we don’t control our thoughts & feelings the chemical imbalance will increase, to the point of PERMANENT MENTAL ILLNESS.”( Newberg,Waldman) It is imperative for us to discipline our minds. We can not allow ourselves to indulge in self-pity or negative thinking.
” Neuroplasticity- the ability of the human brain to structurally rearrange itself in response to a wide variety of positive & negative events.The brains chemical imbalance is due to negative thinking. We create our own mental illness through indulging negative thoughts & depression. Over time, continued negative thinking actually causes the brain to chemically react and change, causing mental illness such as depression, bipolar, thoughts of suicide and schizophrenia.It is scientifically provable that the way we think & feel physically changes our brain over time! Each feeling and thought changes the blood flow and electrochemical activity in multiple areas of the brain.Excessive anger or fear can permanently disrupt many structures in both our body & brain. The destructive emotions interfere with memory storage & cognitive accuracy, which will disrupt our ability to properly evaluate and respond to social situations. Anger makes people indiscriminately punitive, blameful, pessimistic and careless in their logic and reasoning skills. this can influence your behavior for a very long time,eventually this can damage brain structure permanently . If we learn to ponder on God long enough, something surprising happens in the brain. Neural functioning changes, different circuits are activated, new dendrites are formed, new synaptic connections are made, the brain becomes more sensitive.Contemplating on God and who He is changes our brain!! It strengthens neural circuit that enhances social awareness & empathy while subduing destructive feelings and emotions.” (Newberg & a)
Don’t take your feeling and thoughts too seriously. Sure we have all been hurt, there is not one human being on this earth that has never been hurt, abused, offended,rejected,used ect(JESUS himself experienced this to the highest level). Just remember, feelings don’t determine fact! We are not our thoughts,feeling, problems or emotions. We are children and heirs of God’s kingdom. God is our reality, not our thoughts or emotions. As Christians, we can’t afford to self centeredly focus on our pains and poisonous bitter emotional state. We will only find wholeness by focusing on God through PRAYER, PRAISE,WORSHIP, and READING THE SCRIPTURES.
finally brothers,whatever is true,whatever is noble,whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things.Philippians 4:8
sources: (How God changes your brain by:Andrew Newberg & Mark Waldman)(Battlefield of the mind :Joyce meyer)